Confusion

 I am so fucking confused, I cant seem to be sure about how I truly feel or what I truly want in life, sometimes I just live my day without thinking about what's coming and I enjoy it. Sometimes I keep planning about the future. Sometimes I want to analyze my behaviors in the past to understand what's going on with me today and i dont fucking understand shit. Im confused because something Is wrong, I seem to keep proving myself to others, I seem to want to be worthy of their trust, I seem to be careful. While I don't trust anyone with my inner, they lack the daily life living that I talk about, they don't understand they just want to talk about others and not seem to be interested in introspecting themselves. This morning is so weird, im so late for my lecture and instead I'm writing here